Monday, December 21, 2009

On Hold

The breakthrough will have to wait. Through his actions, theEx kindly reminded me today in mediation of some of the reasons we are divorcing. I'm feeling more like breaking something than grieving. Good riddance, I say. I'll be back on track tomorrow or the next day - I've never been able to hold on to feelings of hate very long. And as for how this feeling actually manifests itself, I get very quiet and shut down. I just want to go to sleep. I've also been stuffing my face for the last hour (Thai curry, a raw date/nut bar, and coconut patties).


Melissa said...

Hang in there tiger. I know it's frustrating. One of the best pieces of advice I had was to write down the reasons why we were getting divorced, because you forget sometimes. My ex is getting remarried and I have to write a letter clearing him to remarry and it's been helpful to remember exactly what happened that lead to our divorce. Love ya friend! Hang in there :o)

Katie said...

Thanks :-)

Wow, remarried already? Even if you're OK with it logically, it probably hurts a bit emotionally.
Have you met the wife? Will she take good care of your daughter? I hope everything goes well for you too!

Stacy said...

I'm proud of you Katie, you've come a long way! Keep hanging on (as cliched as that might sound) and you'll get there. There have to be amazing blessings waiting just around the corner for you.

Katie said...

thanks :-)