I missed a day?!

After a week of crappy updates and fighting to get to an electronic device, I FORGOT to post yesterday. Sigh. I'm still sick, just with different symptoms. I went to bed at 9 last night and was up at 11:15 with my sobbing son (he says he got scared when the baby rolled over; also his throat or something hurt). Then I was up to hang out in the bathroom about 4 times between 2:30 and 4:30. My alarm goes off at 4:40, so I got up for good at 4:30. Fun times.

Late night post

I didn't bother trying to use the evil Blackberry today because I knew I could post on my regular computer when I got home from the airport. When I got home our living room, including computers, was torn apart. My husband had removed our nasty old carpet while I was gone and was installing faux wood flooring! Woohoo! I set my alarm for 11:00 pm, by which time my husband was supposed to have the computers set back up again. I woke up at 11:38, when he came to bed. Thanks alarm, for being so reliable!

I hate this Blackberry

It took me another half hour to get here again today. I would probably love the Blackberry if I knew how to use it! The happy couple went through with the wedding and now my mom and I are hiding from the reception.

I hope this works

It took me about half an hour to get to this page on my mom's Blackberry, so I hope it works! We are off to get another dress. My mom finally realized that it is important to my sister that we all match, so we are going to try to find the same dress as the fiance's mom. This is really hard posting on the Blackberry and I can't concentrate.

Sick, Day 2

It ended up taking me until 10 pm last night to pack/rest/pack/rest/rest/rest/pack. I got up at 5 this morning and still feel somewhat nauseated. I am completely weak (I can't even think of proper words!) I ate nothing yesterday. Well, I ate some oatmeal around 7 am, but that came back up. The rest of the day I ate literally nothing. There were some Goldfish cracker crumbs on my desk and I ate them so they wouldn't get swept on to the floor and even that made me feel very sick. I'm making myself some juice right now; hopefully that will give me a bit of energy without being too upsetting.

I wouldn't be posting such a boring update if it wasn't for Nablopomo!

Blough

Ugh. Today was not a good day. I woke up nauseated. I spent 40 minutes sitting in the bathroom waiting to throw up. I finally threw up and then went to work, where I continued to feel sick.

Then my mom called. I don't intend to draw family drama into this blog, so I won't write out a 30-page dissertation, but basically she feels that it is unacceptable for me to nurse in public or in other people's homes without a blanket. I simply do not agree. Intellectually I can see that side. But my spirit and my emotions don't. I just don't live in a world where nursing uncovered is anything but wonderful. I anticipate that I will never understand the other world. I know my world is different than everyone else's, but I don't anticipate it ever changing. This phone call went on for 27 minutes.

Before/during/after the wonderful call I ate a big bowl of oatmeal and it seemed to be OK. Eventually the stomach rumbles came back and I went to the bathroom and waited to throw up. Nothing. So I went back downstairs and felt nauseated again. So I went upstairs and waited to throw up. Nothing. So I left. As soon as I stepped outside I was able to throw up. We have two buildings and of course three people were outside right at the opportune time. A woman saw me and said "Oh, I thought you were throwing up." I looked up from my throw up bowl and said "I am!" She said "You're pregnant!!" This thought had crossed my mind earlier, and I said "I hope not!!" I immediately felt terrible and apologized to the possible zygote/fetus. My husband will be starting school and working full time in January and all the household responsibilities will fall on me. So I didn't feel that now was the best time to be pregnant. But on the other hand, BAYBEEEEEEEESSSS!! I love me some cuddly babies. So on the way home, I bought a pregnancy test. This was really stupid, as the nausea was really nothing like pregnancy nausea, seeing as it was accompanied by a whole host of symptoms. I took the test anyway and was slightly disappointed at the negative.

My husband and baby were still in bed, so I went in there and tried to nurse the baby so we could all sleep. My husband said he just needed 1/2 hour of sleep and then he'd be fine. The baby was bashing him over the head periodically, so I suggested that husband lock Baby and me in the room and he go out to the couch for one hour. Then he could take Baby and I could sleep uninterrupted. He left and I spent the next couple hours being bashed and scratched by un-tired Baby. By then it was time for husband to go to work, so I never got my uninterrupted sleep. After this Baby did fall asleep and we both rested for a while.

Now I've been trying to get up and pack for the past 2 hours but haven't gathered the energy yet. I have such an extreme lack of character and fortitude. I can't even push through a little bit of nausea and body aches to pack a stupid suitcase. I am trying to convince myself to do it NOW. My wonderful amazing precious 6-year old offered to help me. If I do it now and get it over with, I can rest/sleep the rest of the evening and then maybe I won't be miserable on the airplane tomorrow. Yeah, I can hope.

Demoralized

I'm feeling quite demoralized. I make attempts to be responsible in my spending. Yesterday I posted about the everyday shoes I bought and how I finally found a comfy pair. Yeah, that was in the store. Today it was like hot nails stabbing my toes. How can I have some of the most frumpy shoes on the planet and have them be THAT UNCOMFORTABLE?! I am just so demoralized over it. I know that sounds pathetic, but really. I allow myself $25 of spending money every two weeks (if I follow my budget, ha). Apparently I'm not going to find any comfortable shoes in the $20 range. The shoes my mom bought for me a few years ago were close to $80, if I remember correctly. That means I'd have to save up for eight weeks just to get a dumb pair of shoes, and I've already wasted four weeks of money on shoes I can't wear.

In other demoralizing shopping news, I tried to find some pearl hair accessories at the mall. There was not a SINGLE barrette/hair clip with pearls on it in the ENTIRE MALL. Since when did pearls become passé? I specifically wanted a pearl French twist comb in case I wear a French twist for the wedding. No dice. I bought a silver and diamond one. Yeah, THAT'S going to go well with my otherwise ivory/gold ensemble. Sigh.

I want to be pretty. I want to be fashionable. I want to look put together. But then I go to the mall and remember why I just don't try in the first place. Perhaps if I had more resources ($$$$) I wouldn't feel this way. If that was the case, blowing $20 on a pair of shoes that don't work wouldn't even faze me.

Shoes

I guess I left a few details out between my first post on my bridesmaid's dress and yesterday's post.

I ended up picking these shoes to go with the original blue dress.

Then we switched to the ivory/gold dress and obviously silver strappy shoes wouldn't work. So we switched to the tan shoes shown in yesterday's pictures. (Also here)

At the same time I bought the silver shoes, I needed some black daily shoes. By 'daily', I mean literally every single day. They need to work equally well with dresses and jeans for work and church. I ended up picking these Mary Janes. The stitching around the top of the shoe rubs on the top of my foot. I've tried little gel pads, but they are annoying.

Today I was at Burlington Coat Factory and picked up another pair of shoes that will actually be comfortable. I chose the ones shown on this page in the upper right corner (Mootsies Tootsies Colleen). If that link stops working, they look almost exactly like these. Frumpalicious, but SO comfy :-) They were $20 at Burlington, which looks like less than half of what they originally cost!

While looking for pictures of these shoes online, I found these. I think I NEED THEM!!!!

Sorry that I was too lazy to download and post the actual pictures.

Demoted

I brought my bridesmaid's dress to my mom's house this weekend to see how well it would go with her dress. I figured the dresses are all blue; how bad could it be? (This is further proof I have no fashion sense.) It was very bad. My dress is pretty bright, while my mom's is a muted grayish sky blue. My sister (the bride) was the one who picked my dress, so I wasn't too concerned, but eventually we decided we should look for something else.

We went to the mall. Of course there was not a single light blue dress in the ENTIRE mall. There were tons of beautiful jewel toned clothes for fall, but not a single sky blue piece of clothing to be found. We finally found an ivoryish goldish dress.



Neither ivory nor goldish are in my sister's wedding colors, but OH WELL. It's better than bright blue, I guess. As you can see, it's quite matronly looking. My sister was not very happy with this and doesn't want me to look 'old'. I told her that I AM the matron of honor, not a bridesmaid, and I AM old and matronly, so it will work well. The best part about it? It was $15. It was really $25, but the lady in line in front of us had two coupons and the store would only let her use one, so she gave the other to my mom. Woot!

After we finally located the dress, we had to get accessories. Silver shoes and diamondy jewelry would not do. We hit Payless, and they had one pair of shoes that matched the jacket of the dress very well. They don't match the bottom of the dress as well, but OH WELL. (And in the picture they don't look like they match at all.) I got a pearly necklace, earrings, and bracelet from Claire's. Now I've got to figure out what to do with my hair. I was going to wear it mostly down (probably in a half-up of some variety), but I'm not sure if that will work with this dress. I might try to do a matronly looking French twist or something.

November 1st

So now it's November 1st. Every day I have little snippets of ideas I'd like to write about in my blog. Today, I'm totally blank. I guess I'll write about my slacker Halloween. I wore my Jedi costume, of course. I don't like change. I'm OK with wearing it every year until it falls apart. My kids have been earning money/toys by doing extra chores, and for their last toy, they bought these incredibly cheap Clone Trooper costumes. Their choices were to dress as Jedi (since we already have costumes), cowboys (since they got Western clothes + boots this summer), or clone troopers. They ended up going as the clone troopers. I totally spaced out the fact that we have a tiger costume and Baby could have worn it and would have looked SO cute. My ongoing sore throat worsened significantly after work, so I ended up not even going out with the kids. I just drove slowly in the car as they went from house to house.

Wow, this was probably the most compelling post ever.

I'm not sure how successful I'll be at NaBloPoMo. I'll be out of town for 4 days next week, and unlike the rest of the country, my cell phone does not send emails or get on the internet, I don't have a laptop with wireless, nor any other kind of internet-accessing device! My mom has a Blackberry, now that I think about it. I may end up using it to post here (if I can figure out a way to delete the sent message from history!), or maybe our hotel will have computers.